summer 2010

There's something happening with the positioning of the planets during this time which is creating to interesting energetics. I mean, I'm still in the experimental phase of my practical application of astrology, but nevertheless it certainly does not hurt to set intentions! I can't imagine that we're NOT affected by the planets around us on an energetic level, so logically it makes sense, though much quackery is bound to partner up with something as vague as the specific effects of planets. I certainly feel the strength of the moon as it waxes and wanes, and I observe the difference in others. And I certainly believe that alignments create an energetically interesting vortex/flow, and i'm certainly looking forward to the galactic alignment in december of 2012! If the big planetary alignments and crossings feel worth paying attention to, perhaps the smaller ones also have an affect.

I don't feel like researching the specifics about the current alignment. I had already researched it a few months ago, as the time-frame for the grand cross (july 11th to august 5th) hugs my due date so perfectly and seemed.... 'auspicious.' the word auspicious used to mean 'favorable' but in the verbally uneducated new-age circles of san francisco, 'auspicious' has come to mean 'synchronistic.' I realized that being flexible with word-usage will cause me less frustration with the ambiguity and vagueness with which many people use words. I myself have been guilty as well, and my frustration at others for their lax approach to word usage is just a projection at my own insecurity about my intelligence/vocabulary! This is something i learned about myself in the last week and its been super interesting because i never thought it was an issue for me, but alas, it is and i am now transmuting it and reprogramming it.

So, that was a good ramble.. (its very early in the morning, and i'm awake because i tend to wake up dehydrated around this time, and after drinking a lot of water, my baby wakes up and starts kicking around for a while... seems he's calmed down now.) Em... where was i? Intention setting (after justifying why, followed by a contextual ramble...)

I am flexible about the time-frame about the following intention, and am open to having it manifest in whatever form most serves me. I can feel the feeling and situation that I wish to manifest, and look forward to its fruition :) I want to live in a community: A close, comfortable community. I want to be surrounded by the natural world and be living a tangibly productive life, growing food, building structures, maybe organizing programs/workshops/internal software structures for the community/etc. I want my child to have friends to run around with safely, to activate his imagination within the natural world, without the human-created dangers of the city. I want to be worry-free as to his whereabouts and whatabouts, so that he may exercise his freedom and grow intelligently and naturally. I want to feel connected to the people i live and work wtih. I want to be a positive contributor to the community, adding my personal strengths to the strength of the community.

I am willing to wait 5 years for this dream to manifest. I am still young, just about to turn 23, and haven't quite figured out what my strengths are and how I would best be of service to a community. But the strength with which I feel this dream makes it valuable as an Intention. I can't really imagine any other lifestyle for myself or my child. In the next 5 years or so, i intend upon finding and nourishing my strengths, and set myself upon Mastery of a skill which will stay with me for the rest of my life and serve me as a form of currency. Perhaps it will be acupuncture, or perhaps i'll find something else.

I'd also like to invite into my life organized minds. I have often wished that my mind was administrative and well-planned (probably because my mom filled that role very well) but i have never been able to become that way, and I'm beginning to feel as if that may be a characteristic that i'd like to attract in a future-partner so that i wont have to worry about that. Or maybe a close friend, such as a housemate, who would push and motivate me to remain on task and seeking out all the necessary information and whatnot. I have never been thorough with research, and appreciate that my mum and dad were always incredibly thorough.

i'd like to invite in less seriousness and more fun. I think this is inevitable, but i'd like to set the intention now that I may not follow the mold of the serious parents that have been modeling for me through this life. I'd like to approach and experiece motherhood as a joy, a playful game, and a wondrous adventure. I release anxiety about Okayness and accept that we're okay and will continue to be okay (thank you, universe; Thank you, love.)

And now, for a less self-centered intention, i offer my constant self-help, self-modification/evolution to humanity, that the dreams of human cooperation and evolution to a loving species is realized.... and thaht the end of unchecked greed and fear-based motivations becomes a global awakening, starting at the grassroots, at the personal roots, at the work that i and people around me are doing on themselves and their own stories. (thank you, self-conscious individuals of the world!)

I feel my picture is complete. And now i'm hungry so i'm gonna go feed my baby :) oh~~ i can't wait to meet you, boy.