Lucid dreams

A "lucid dream" is when a dreamer recognizes within the dream that it is a dream and doesn't confuse it with waking life. I aspired to achieve this and on August 20th I got a beautiful new journal and began to jot down what I remembered as soon as I awoke. I filled half the journal, pages and pages for one night of dreaming, often wondering what the point was. The dreams often seemed meaningless and I always look for meaning. But i persisted anyway, because I'd devalued the dream realm for too long and i was determined to value dreams as much as waking life.

Somewhere along the way I learned that when checking watches in a dream the numbers appear jumbled. In waking life I began to check the time and made it such an obsessive part of my reality that eventually it was bound to come up in my dream.

When I finally did, it was on my moms wristwatch that I discovered I was dreaming: 11,11,01010 it said. "I'm dreaming!" I proclaimed. My mother said "no, your not. That's silly." and I turned away from her, deleting her from my dream knowing my disrespect would have no real consequences. After double dutch jump roping and wondering what to do with my new freedom, I awoke, and began wondering what I could really do with this new power. I noted that I was so preoccupied with doing stuff that I didn't just observe my dream surroundings.

Two nights later I again checked a clock in my dream after suspecting it was a dream. I observed and existed within the dream. I saw beautiful animals, huge turtles, a big grey wolf, a fox with a big bushy tail, and I breathed underwater. I simply got carried by the dream, even having some scary adventures, even getting caught up with annoying characters and briefly forgetting lucidity.

After awaking I again wondered what the potential of lucid dreaming contained. After a disappointing google search where every lucid dreamer has sex, gets  high or meets celebrities, I realized that I desired profundity. I could try to contact the spirit world somehow, but more importantly, I could do the things I want to do in the future, like be at the top of a mountain, or in an ecoillage. I could go to sleep and return to my ecoillage every night, and be with my albeit imaginary friends and feel connections to them that aren currently possible for me. More magically/spiritually productively I could meditate and activate my chakras, exploding fire from my feet and reeling into space like astro boy. Or I could have an out of body experience and visit the dimensions beyond space and time, the realm where the angels live, or I could experience the mystical wonders of the cosmos...

Practically speaking, I could create my goals instantly and experience  what it would look and feel like to be the person I'm trying to become (a mentor, a teacher, a competent, responsible, socially productive human adult) by putting myself in the situations I fear that hold me back from achieving it sooner in my real life...

I am so psyched to have gotten here and experienced lucid dreaming. I didn't know Why I wanted to achieve it, but it's going to add a whole new depth to my life. Although I'm happy with where I'm at, I really want to be able to close my eyes and fall asleep and simply step back into the dream world, never losing consciousness for a moment!

That would be fantastic.